everything's related.

I was watching Coffee Prince yesterday, via RTB2. And this conversation strucked me.

Eun Chan: “In the beginning, I never thought you’d like someone like me. It seemed like you liked Yu Ju. She’s so beautiful that I can’t compare with her, so I thought I was better off being seen as a man. When I asked how you would feel if I were a woman, you said you weren’t going to date around anymore, that you’d marry a nice woman from a nice background, someone your grandmother and mother approved of. I’m not womanly or pretty, but if we were sworn brothers, I could be with you all the time. When we goofed around, and you treated me so well… I liked it so much I couldn’t tell you the truth.”

Han Gyul: “I really hate this. Why am I always betrayed by loved ones? Why didn’t my father tell me about my birth mother? Why couldn’t you tell me the truth? I thought about it so much my head felt like it would burst — it was because you couldn’t trust me. My father and you both. And I loved you so much. But you couldn’t trust me.”

Eun Chan: “It’s not that I couldn’t trust you, I couldn’t trust myself.”

courtesy of dramabeans.com

My closest friends will know what I mean by this but I'm not sure. No, it's not about homosexuality since Coffee Prince is kinda about that and it's not about lying too, it's something beyond what was said by the character. Especially parts that I have highlighted and true, it resembles so much. :) But in the case of 'I never thought you’d like someone like me.', I still feel you don't and never will. No worries. It's complicated so that would be one of the reason why you don't understand.


till then

w a i n e y









it's true, i don't trust myself, and i don't know how you're feeling makes it more hard. superwave?

fine. i'll stop.

Recently, I've beeeeen feeling down because of, erm, how do I explain? Ahh, I felt down cause I was feeling a sudden rush of emotions. No. Nothing serious. Just a sudden rush of emotions like this type of emotions 'sh*tineedtodotonnesofassignmentsand-iaintreadycausemybrainisstillonbreakhowonearthcanidothisstuffwheniain't-readyandomgineedmyreallifebackicantstayonthenetforhoursandohnoeswe-aregonnabehavingexamsinlikeindabatahlagigilaaai'mstress.'

Yes. Basically, my brain went on turning mode and then tried to dissolve everything in but it didn't work out to well, she needs some rest still. Cause it was all too much to take in seriously. Yeah. I wanted to do my best this semester but urgh, splur of the moment. I JUST NEED REST. But thankfully all the friends did a good job in letting me feel happy and their jokes are seriously one of a kind. And yes, when PJ comes we need to do a 'One more time' dance, yeah? HAHA.

So, no worries, I'll get used to this new semester soon. :D And now, I leave you with some photo. XD

till then

w a i n e y










yes. we superwaved, we talked but i felt like, it's not the same anymore. is it just me? or you feel it too?

it's happening.

네 옆에 있는 그 사람이 뭔지 혹시 널 울리진 않는지

그대 내가 보이긴 하는지 벌써 싹 다 잊었는지

걱정돼 다가가기조차 말을 걸 수 조차 없어 애태우고

나 홀로 긴 밤을 지새우죠 수백번 지워내죠

차라리 만나지 않았더라면 덜 아플텐데

Credits to 파란, vip room @ BBVIPZ

T_T.

Someone.



w a i









yes. i want you to superwave me. please. i can't handle another day like what happened on saturday and today.

09-08-08

Saturday, 09-08-08, 5:34pm.

How am I feeling? Not good. Reason? I'm tired and someone inda superwave. Anyways. My mood inda lawa since yesterday till this morning cause I felt something. Something weird and it's just too weird to explain. Even I don't understand that feeling so I can't really explain. I think that plain weird feeling evolve from watching BB's new video. Emotional jua saya tu.

But, Thankfully, my mood change to a totally new mood when we had our first lecture this morning. Cause I was hyper when I met my friends. :D Yes. I love them much. Plus, my friends aren't lame. And, lunch made me more hyper. I know. I know. Lunch always make me hyper. Sometimes.

Our first lecture for Pendidikan Jasmani was hard. It was hot. The temperature was hot and we had to sit on the floor with Baju Kurung on. :S My mood ain't good, I can't continue.

till then

w a i n e y























i didn't mean to not superwave or supersmile to you but i kinda wish you'd take the risk. i don't know. w/o the superwave, i'm not hyper anymore. this is when kinder bueno comes in handy. :) yes. i wish i can post all the things i want to say but.

Oh myyyyyyyyyyyy.

I can't stop watching this and I can't stop listening to the Mini Album. O.O!

Why. Hello! LOL. Let's begin the proper post, shall we? Yes. Today is 08-08-08. :D Been looking forward to this date because of two reasons. One - The Olympics and Two - Big Bang's Mini Album. And as you can see, I'm already hooked on Big Bang's mini album!

I especially love 하루하루. Just because of the melody and of course the Music Video played a big part. And. I love their concept! And, I'm not kidddddding. This is for real. I like the concept. T.O.P looks good as always. Yes, fyi, I like T.O.P, yes. Choi Seung Hyun. :D LOL. I adore him since the day I saw him in a shopping cart. HAHA. That didn't sound riggght. But hey. Ji Yong was looking awesome jua in the music video. Someone stop me from watching the music video. AHHHHH. And, and I love the part when Magnae & Dae-Sung was at the door looking out for Ji Yong. :') And yes, Tae Yang, I can't get enough of you. HAHA.

OKAY! Back to reality world. So, I think we finally sort out all of our time table slots and such. And, YAY. I'm free on wednesday. For the first time in my life, I finally have a one-day-no-class-to-go-to day. HAHAH. And, when I found out I don't have any classes on Wednesday, I went 'Oh yeeeeeeeeeeah.' XD. What else? Well, one thing for sure is that my Monday is definitely full. I have class from 9-10 then 10-12 and then free for I don't know how many hours and then have another tutorial at 3-4pm. The only choice we had. :S I certainly did not want any late afternoon tutorials but yeah. And the same goes for my Tuesday. Lagi tia. I have tutorial at 11-12 then free and then tutorial at 3-4pm. :S At first, the 3-4pm tutorial was on Monday 1-2pm but then LOL. Something happened and yes, we got transferred.

I'm okay, as long as my Thursday afternoon is not disturbed. YES. You cannnnnnot disturb me on Thursday afternoon. Not this week, not next week, not next month. HAHA. Our Saturday's packed too, We have a 2 different lecture in the morning and then we have a 3 hours lecture in the afternoon. It would be tiring, that I know for sure. :( Ugh. So, I better go and rest now. Plus, I need to think stuff for the assignments mentioned on tuesday. AAAAAA. I'm freaking out.

Oh, btw. This Song (Inorae) by 2AM is awesome for sure. I love the meaning of the song. Very deep and meaningful plus Sincere.

till then

w a i n e y












should i? ogteli? i can't for sure. cause seeing you superwave and smile makes me happy.



w a i

& Semester 3.

Let's start with a big surprise look. O.O! The semester seriously started with full of surprises. What a way to start the semester. HAHA. Seriously, I never thought I would start the semester with this kind of surprises. Remember, in my last posts, which I don't know when, LOL, I said that our 6 subject for the semester was Sejarah, Sivik, Academic English, L & D II, Issues & Trend and Science.

Guess what? LOL. Scratch that Sejarah, Sivik and Academic English. :O We are studying, Kemahiran Berbahasa II, Pendidikan Jasmani : Muzik & Pergerakan and Seni Kreatif. :S O.M.G. Someone slap me on the face, now. You can not imagine how I reacted when we were briefed with this new subjects. I was in pain. And, I felt like I could jumped off a cliff at any moment. LOL. I can not, I repeat, I CAN NOT do Pendidikan Jasmani, I do bad in sports. I get my collapse moment. I certainly don't want anyone to see me collapse. No. I DO NOT WANT.

And, did you know how much I looked forward to attending Sivik?!? :D LOL. I have my reasons. Plus, With Sivik we were gonna visit placesss. Ohhh. I guess that ain't happening. And, yes. With the teacher assistance-ship next semester, I'm going O.O . What am I going to doooooooooooooooo? I AM NOT READY. I was brain dead when we attended the briefing, seriously. I'm not kidding. I was super shocked. LOL. And with the Social Study thingy, I went, "WHAT??" Sorry, if I was too loud. But yes. I can not do PJ. Not this semester. Ahhhhh. And yes. I'm freaking out. LOL. But hey, I know, we can definitely do this. I have the SF;s by my side. The Families' support! The BFF;s' souls are with me too so, I'm okay. I will be okay. :D And hey, tell you what. I had a great day. ;)

till then

w a i n e y










oh. lunch time. one of the risky risk you did. :) awww.

Hello August.

August. So, here you are. LOL. Another month had passed and I'm feeling quite good. :D Nothing big has happened but yes, many interesting things had evolved in July. For example, meeting Zimah, :D Yes, it was awesome. Erm, what else did I do in July? Oh yeah, I scratched many things off my to-do list so it's all good. I need to make new To-Do List now. HAHA. ROTFL.

Anyways, so August will be my busy month. :S With semester starting, birthdays coming, (HAHA) and with ugh, catching up to do. This month will be super busy for me. I can feel them already. LOL. And, I am now currently in room wrapped around a blanket because this room is super collllllllllllllllllllllllllllllld. And no wonder, it's 16 degree celscius. O_O. HAHA. I'm frozen here. And, I'm not in the state where I can move easliy and take the remote. LOL. I'm staying with this blanket un till I finish posting. HAHA. And, it's colllllllddddddddd.

So yeah, I was surfing around through L Studio's website. :D And apparently they were the ones who did Andy & Solbi's wedding photoshoot and they also did Alex and Shin Ae's photoshoot. To be honest, I'm not that type of person who looks forward to looking at wedding pictures but OMG. L Studio from Korea's workSS are incredible.

And it's true what someone had commented. Andy and Solbi gives off this 'We just married and we're in love' aura where as Alex and Shin Ae gives off this 'We are married and we're in love' aura, I mean Alex and Shin Ae gives off a natural feeling where as Andy and Solbi are still shy with their feelings. That's what I get while looking through their pictures. By the way, if you are looking through L Studio's website, 2008 SS Classic Style is my favourite one. :D & 2008 SS KiKi Style comes in second. But don't worry, I don't intend on getting married anytime soon.

HAHA. LOL. I'm still seventeen and I cringe everytime people say the word marriage. I'm not into it at the moment. I don't like commitments. It's something I'm worse at, And I am not prepared for any commitments. It freaks the hell out of me. Any whooo, I'm looking forward to Hyun Joong and Hwang Bo's photoshoot, I think it'll be awesome. :D And, looking towards UBD calendar's, I'm going "Ohhh~?? Ahh~~~" LOL. XD So, we're starting on the 4th of August then 22nd September is our 1 week break. Sounds alright.

24th November is when we start our Third examination. So, that means by my birthday, I will need to get ready with exams. Okay, sounds like a good plan. LOL. I think? Anyways. I'm freeeezing so I can't take this anymore. I'll end this post here. HAHA.

till then

w a i n e y












seriously, i don't know what to say to you on the 4th. but i'll be waving. :)