A Farewell.

December 21st, 2017 is when you are officially laid to rest and as much as I want to let you go, it's very difficult. I remember when I heard my phone's notification that Monday night, I felt very uneasy and immediately went to check what it was and the words that I saw were words that I never would have expected, something that I never wanted to see, two words in one sentence together that made it really hard to digest.

I was hoping, hard that it was not true; it was rumors, that there will be better news shared but seconds turned into minutes turned into hours and it finally dawned on me that it was real. You are gone. A lot of things went through my mind, a lot of what if, a lot of why, a lot of how, how are we all going to cope?

And the way you left us, it's heartbreaking. It hurts because we cannot blame anyone else, the only thing we could do at that moment was really, blame ourselves, for failing to see, failing to be there, failing to make you feel happy. If you left because of health problems, we could have blamed the system for working you too hard. If you left because of an accident, we could have blamed the person who caused the accident but all this did not happen. You left because you needed to leave. The only way you know would make you feel better and it hurts so much. It hurts because we didn't do enough.

You needed to hear one sentence from us and we could have, should have said it to you repeatedly but we failed. When I was younger, I've talked about it, how I said it was selfish for people to commit to it but as I've grown older, I began to understand that it involves something way deeper than what we all perceive it to be.

You were going through a very hard time, a very difficult time, you tried reaching out but.

Honestly, there are times when I, I feel so broken, so useless but I know you must have felt more than how I felt. The times when I broke down, I felt it's not describable and I just can not imagine how it must have been for you. The past few days have been really hard. Every time someone mentions you, every time I see your name, your face, your smile, your voice, it hits me hard. Very hard. I try my best to not cry but fail every single time.

I think the main reason why is; it's very difficult to accept this loss and it's very difficult to let an amazing person like you go. It's also very hard because it just is. I don't care if people say I am over reacting, but they don't know. They don't know how much your words, your voice affect people. How much of an influence you are to a lot of people, how much your words warm our heart. I wished our words could have done that, you would have felt what we felt but.

It’s alright if you run out of breath

No one will blame you

It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes

Because anyone can do so

Although comforting by saying it’s alright

Are just words

Even if others think your sigh

Takes out energy and strength

I already know

That you had a day that’s hard enough

To let out even a small sigh

Now don’t think of anything else

Let out a deep sigh

Just let it out like that
Lyrics and Composed by you.

I will continue to listen to your songs, your voice and will remember you. You may slipped my mind at times but know that you have touched my heart, made a change in my life and you should be very proud of that.

Thank you for teaching me what life is, how I should treat people, to not waste time, to listen more to other's words. Thank you for teaching me all this.

You've worked hard, Jonghyun-ah. You really did, it must have been hard for you, wasn't it? But I am thankful that I got to know you, I've gotten to know someone like you; amazing, thoughtful, passionate who believes and stands for what he believes in. Thank you.

You've worked hard, Kim Jonghyun.
수고했어요 김종현 정말 .

Love, wai.

VIXX Conception 2016 has finally come to an end.

Kratos unofficial mini review! VIXX, VIXX, VIXX. I don't even know what to say anymore. How can they continue to surprise me every single comeback? Due to work commitment issues, I didn't get to review Hades (which was amazing, by the way!) I probably will review that when I have the chance but for now, let's focus on The Closer!




Alright, let's shout this: I LOVE ADORE AND AM SO SMITTEN with this comeback. (Especially since the comeback was right on my birthday, yes I'm a Halloween baby). I can't even begin to explain how much I love this release. What I love the most about this release and comeback is that the release is such a contrast and is so different from their other releases. They even mentioned it on their V-App that the release is something very different that what they had put out previously and it's so true.

Even with the lyrics, they began with "Thing about love" which (!) I can not get over with, it's on my head, every single second, minute and hour. I can not get it out of my head! The song starts slow with real heavy beats, almost RnB sounding but slow. It starts off like a slow jam with a beautiful beat and bass (which I have a weakness for!) But as soon as it transition to the chorus from the verse, it became this very complex song with very complex beats in the background. It became so heavy but so heavenly; orchestra like even! The swerve bass, I can not get over it and I love how the sounds have lots of layers with lots of very heavy and big flow. The song is definitely heavy on the vocals, using the boys' strength and just showcasing every single skill the boys have and it's just lovely. The song has this crescendo feel to it and you can feel how strong it is. (I best recommend you to hear this song using headphones!)

I love how they layer the vocals, it's barely there but noticeable. It makes the song sounds more put together and complex. I love the vocal and rap on Ravi's main rap part, it's unpredictable but the vocal and rap work well together. But I also like about this song is that, it actually starts with very minimal sounds but then they start building up the beats but also bringing it back down at the end. And the end! You know that swerve with the lyrics' "It's over" Try listening to Dynamite-Fantasy-The Closer. You can feel the era ending, you know with The Closer that this year long project has finally come to an end (BUT WE WANT MORE). I love that!

A few lyrics that I just need to let people know are:

Getting closer
다 밀어내고 너를 독점해
너의 어디에도 감히 눈을 두지 않게
틈 하나 없도록 다가가
모두들 멍하니 바라보게 안아봐

Getting closer
I push all the others away and claim you for myself
so that they won’t dare to lay their eyes on you anywhere
I walk towards you without giving them a chance
Hold you so that the others can stare in a daze

Trans creds: fy-vixx

Try listening to this on your birthday. You would swoon, I did. I think if it wasn't my birthday, I would probably still swoon. And what I also love about this part is during Ken's part : "I walk towards you without giving them a chance, Hold you so that the others can stare in a daze" It was plain and soft at first and once he said the first word, the beats started building into this crescendo, as if trying to explain how serious he was and then the beat stopped, the song became jarring WHICH MADE ME GO "OMG. WHAT. MY HEART."


And then this other part came!

The thing about love 난 네 의심을 닫고
The thing about love 전에 없던 것을 줄게 난
몰아치던 밤이 그치면
나와 함께 사라질 뿐야
널 내게 맡겨 널 내게 맡겨 uh (내게로)
And It’s over  

The thing about love I can end your doubts
The thing about love I’ll give you the things you didn’t have before
When the raging night ceases
You’ll disappear with me
Trust yourself to me, trust yourself to me uh (to me)
And It’s over

Trans creds: fy-vixx

I mean, what else can I do other than, trust VIXX? When this part comes, I'm always like, not I'm not ready for this but it's just so so good! That ending though, breaks my heart on how beautiful it is! Alright, now let me touch on the Music Video (If you haven't watch it, please do, using 720p as well and put the volume as high as possible, I promise you, You'll enjoy it!)

This music video is so different from what we've seen from Dynamite and Fantasy, while Dynamite was bright, Fantasy was not and when The Closer came, I don't know where to put it, it's dark almost creepy even but it's not obvious until you listen to the song. The music video has the eerie feel to it but you don't really notice it, because it's not obvious! So the main character for this video is Ken, while everyone is in freeze frame, he goes to each member almost making that "Hold you so that the others can stare in a daze / Get trapped in time and Dance with me." line true, literally. Because each member is in a daze, freeze frame, not moving an inch. And don't you think that little attention to detail to the lyrics is amazing? They could have made this video with Ken fighting off the others to get the girl but no, they decided to freeze frame everyone because Ken is ZEUS! But also once you link Dynamite and Fantasy you will then really know, that Ken is just playing with the mortal (in this case the five members and the girl) If you noticed in Dynamite, The main character Hakyeon, gets jealous because he hasn't got the girl yet and he plans on doing something about it, but Leo beats him to it in Fantasy by getting that Love Potion from Ravi. In Dynamite and Fantasy we see, Hongbin and Hyuk trying to stop N-Leo from doing something "stupid" to get the girl but what they don't know is, there is a big mastermind behind all this; which is Ken.


Why do I say this because the end of the project; The Closer ends with Ken being the main character and in the video, we see almost everything from his point of view (case in point, his reflection on the car). So Ken is probably is the mastermind behind all the things that have went on. And, at the end of the song, he is the one who say It's over, not only because the produces/ line distributor thinks he would do that line best but also because all the things that happen is because of him and as if you see, during the performance at the end of the song, only Ken looks up to the audience while the others put their head down. To be quite honest, there are so many theories out there for this year long project and there is so many ways to interpret it. I just hope one day, Jellyfish will come up with an explanation so that everyone can stop cracking minds, heads trying to solve all the mystery. Haha.

But overall, I SWOON is the correct statement for this comeback and I hope VIXX slays this comeback. It seems hard, but we can do it STARLIGHTS!

till then!

- wai

DYNA-MITE!

My boys are back! Our boys are back and I'm completely blown away! So, what we know from the information that they have given us is that their concept for this year long project; VIXX 2016 CONCEPTION will be Greek Gods. So, for the first Greek legends they are tacklin in their 5th single is based upon Zelos ˈziːləs the Greek God of Jealousy who personifies dedication, emulation, eager rivalry, envy, jealousy, and zeal. In other words, this single focuses on jealousy. And I'm excited!

I'm gonna review Dynamite (다이너마이트) through the song and it's MV.




And first thing's first, I have to get this out there : I LOVE IT. I can't believe Jellyfish and VIXX has done it again; impressed me and made me fall in love all over again. Just, seriously, I don't know how they do it but they did it. Haha. I'll review the song first, it's amazing. This song sounds jazzy, funky, upbeat and it's mixed in really well, the bass, the guitar sounds, the vocals (!!) and just the transition between all verse and chorus. Can you believe how much I just love the beats in this song? I recommend you to listen to the instrumental, you will not believe how complicated the beats are but it mash so well together that you don't think it's out of place. I just seriously was in awe when I heard the instrumental, and when I listened to the song again, it was like I heard something new and it was even better!

Ravi starting the song is perfect! "All mine, her mind" that one line just explains the whole essence of the song and I instantly said 'I'M IN LOVE', then hearing all this vocal being mixed in is like amazing. Do you hear Ken starting that verse?

뭘 봐 이거 놔 진정하라 하지 마
무슨 소용이야 다
이미 뻔히 저기 끝이 보여 

This was amazing, the layering in this part is amazing, go listen real closely and it's there! That layers, oh my gosh, I don't know man, but I have to say Jellyfish's producers are amazing and they deserve a pat in the back and a huge hug. The chorus though, the build up before the chorus too, it's perfect, the progression is just amazing! I don't know how else to explain but the build up sounds so up beat and exciting. The chorus just makes me love those two vocals! I just can't not love their vocals. I like how sometimes they tone down the sound and emphasise on the vocals and it's just makes us be aware of his/their vocal more! I just don't know how to explain how much I love Leo's tone, he's just perfect in this song. Halfway to their song, when they change the beat to a slower one, you just fall, fall in love with N! You know he can sing but he's just proving himself here. It's like you can't imagine it going there but they did. And to the climax of the song, the layerings of vocals makes you appreciate each and everyone because you can hear all of them. Let's not forget Hyuk, he has made so much progress and his parts are the ones that I love the most, I just go singing his part all the time now. His tone is perfect to make that beat drop and go to chorus. Hongbin, well, Hongbin, oh gosh, he had that scary lyrics and when the spoiler when out I was afraid of how tacky it was gonna be but HE NAILED IT.

수리수리 이뤄져라 All mine
수리수리 돌아서라 Her mind

It's like you are really being put under a spell and his tone just makes that work. I don't think I can imagine any other person singing his parts, and that's what makes VIXX amazing, when they are given a part, they own it. It's theirs. And Ravi, my baby! My favourite rapper! You will never fail me, you never disappoint me! He sounds great and I love how the beats goes down during his part and the bass just kinds takes over and becomes this great transition to that not so obvious guitar. It's amazing and his rap, well, he knows his strength and he sounds GREAT. So yeah, you obviously understand I LOVE THE SONG. It's my definite go-to song this week, will probably hum it at work, when I go to class, while in the staff room, it will be my song!

Now, let's talk about the MV. I JUST AM SO SATISFIED. I love vivid colour so much and never thought that VIXX would do it and they did it so well! It just makes everyone looks so damn good. Ken is especially pretty and charming in this music video and I can't help smile every single time he goes on screen especially in his solo shots! He's just really taking my breathe away. The music video is everything I want it to be!

Let me just mention the other two songs in the single!

"Six Feet Under" (늪)

 This song, I just can't stop listening to it! Especially that last two parts :

'Cause you got me going crazy
니 말에 베어 난
또다시 going insane
버틸 수가 없어 난
버틸 수가 없어 난
너 때문에 미쳐가 미쳐가
한 치도 볼 수 없게
넌 나를 가둔 채로
내 두 귀를 막아 두 귀를 막아
끝내 무릎 꿇어도
돌아보지 않는 너

(‘Cause you got me going crazy
I’m cut by your words again I’m going insane
I can’t take it anymore (can’t take it anymore)
I’m going crazy because of you (going crazy)
You’ve imprisoned me so that I can’t see anything
You cover my ears (cover my ears)
Finally I get on my knees but you don’t even turn to look at me)

Trans. credit : fyeah-vixx

The harmonies in this part just makes me so-so proud.

손의이별

is the other song that they are promoting during their comeback stages and it's a ballad. It's sad, it's perfect, it's VIXX,  It's very MELODESIGN, who I really love. It may sound like a typical ballad but when you get to listen to it carefully and understand the lyrics, you'll be 'whoa, whoa' I didn't expect that at all but you kinda did.


So overall, I'm VERY-VERY-SUPER-DUPER satisfied with this single, no matter what people say. I'm very proud of VIXX and very happy for Jellyfish, because they've proven themselves again. They really are great people working in there, the producers, staff, choreographers, stylists! They are the people who makes VIXX shine the brightest and I hope that they are proud of themselves too.

Good job VIXX and we love you!

till then!

-wai

Armor down!

Hey, hey! I'm thankfully, back!




I'm back with a mission, a mission to share and spread the love! My favourite people has finally made their comeback on 10th November 2015. They came back with a full album and I'm obviously very-very excited about the album. Their title song for this album is 사슬 (Chained up), Ravi came up with the concept which has been revealed to be Love Slave - Slave of Love.

So, how do I feel about this comeback? How do I feel about this song? Gotta be honest with you, I am in love! I'm loving every single thing about it, the song, concept, music video, promotions, EVERYTHING. But first, let me talk about the song. You know when I first heard the teaser, I was all omg omg omg, that beat! And yes, the beat is in the song. Do you know what I love so much about VIXX? It's because whenever they perform, they each shine at their own parts. Their vocals are so diverse and everyone is so different with each other but once they mesh up together, it just becomes this perfect puzzle. It makes everything so easy to listen to.

We have Hongbin starting the song this time and if you knew me, you would know how much I'm game for Bin's voice tone, it's so perfectly low but perfect, some low tones becomes really hard to listen to but Bin's is a perfect full sounding low tone and I adore this so much. N then continues and pick up the song with his very unique tone that you can't help but go wow, that sounds really good. Leo's voice is a high tone but very stable voice and it doesn't give you the impression that he's suffering and that is what I love about him so much. Ken, well, Ken, he always makes me speechless. He's amazing, his tone, well, he could go high, he could go mid but he always sound so clear and full like it's a perfect sound. We then have Hyuk who has this very unique not so high, not so low, very middle but very unique voice tone. Ravi, oh ravi, he's my favourite rapper. He knows how to work his voice, how to go with the rhythm and I love the fact that he had a short verse, gave the vocals a place to put a lil' transition and then we go back to his rap.

The only way to really understand what I'm talking about is to listen to the song, and to make sure that you appreciate the song as a whole, you should try listening to the instrumental as well. You can hear the beats and how it's actually against their voices but then when they come together, it creates this unique sound and finish off clean. It may not be the most challenging- vocal wise song from VIXX but you know that VIXX's team and staff really did a clever job with this song. I applaud Jellyfish for having a very good arranger. I really do. What I love the most about VIXX is when you listen, you know who is who and no one sounds the same. That's what I call a team, a group. I'm very proud of VIXX if you haven't noticed. Haha, I love them so much and I could talk all night about them.

Anyway, now let's talk about the music video. The third time I watched it, I literally had a pen and paper ready because I needed to jot down my thoughts, there were a lot of things I love about the music video. I love how each and everyone of them worked the rooms they had. Visually it's amazing! Everyone just matched well with their rooms, (Notice that when it's an album, VIXX always get assigns a room? They had rooms in VOODOO DOLL as well!) My favourite room was the white dance room! It looks soft but match perfectly with their choreo. And I have to talk about the chokers! If I had to pick one, I really like the Chained up logo choker. The music video also seem to have this BR-esque / Crows Zero-esque vibe! And you know how much I love those two movies! Haha.

So, take your time, click that play button and try to see what I just typed in. Maybe you'll see more amazing stuff, I always see something new whenever I watch the video. Haha.

till then!

- wai

Half-year(not) tunes.

I can't believe it's already October! I can't believe it! And I can't believe I've let this blog collect so much dust. Haha, well! Here I am, ready to share with you, what I've been listening to the past 9 months. I'll start with my saying that I will share 5 songs. Five different song that I've been listening to diligently in no particular order.

First up! Eddy Kim - 조화 (造花)



This is my favourite track from Eddy Kim's second EP Sing, Sing Sing. I've always loved his voice and his releases but this one, this really gets me. It makes me feels a lot of different things while listening to this song and I admit, when this song was released, I repeatedly played it everywhere! On my way to work, during work (free period that is!), before bed time, when I wake up and it gets me every single time.

Would you stay with me?
Would you talk to me, for me?
I’m so beautiful.
Would you stay with me?

I’m a living flower, I can breathe,
I’m not lonely,
Yes.

That's just the chorus, and it amazes me so much. You gotta admit Eddy's skills is just too lovely for words, he always amazes me with his release and he never fails to make me fall in love all over again.


Next - Amber - Beautiful.



So, f(x)'s Amber released her very first solo album this year and I'm love her album minus the title track. I love listening to this song the most because it's almost raw but honest. We all need this in our life once, a confirmation, a person to say yeah, why change? You're beautiful no matter what you wear, what you do. I love that she released another video during her birthday for her fans and I'm seriously back to re-listening to this tune.

Those hurtful words deeply cut into my heart
It hurt but I bit my tongue and endured
I know I’m gonna heal and I’m always looking up
Even if it’s dark, I’m gonna find the light
I will smile, I will keep smiling

My third pick is 아이언 (IRON) - blu (Feat. Babylon)




Omg, IRON is my favourite rapper from season 3 of SMTM so obviously when he released this single, I was more than excited but what I like the most was that I am still surprise with everything that he does. His mixtape was really good to listen to but this, this, this(!) was the best thing that ever happened! When this came out, I was still listening to his I AM and 독기 continuously so I was obviously very glad to have a new song out from him that I can listen to. He knows what works, he knows what he should put out and I really honestly don't mind if he doesn't release anything soon because what I really want from him is a full album, full of what he wrote, what he made.

Next is VIXX - 이별공식 (Love Equation)




Oh, VIXX. This year was a 90s kinda year where almost all 90s songs came back to life and VIXX made a remake of R.ef's Love/Farewell Equation. And it was the first since a long timeeee, since VIXX sang a bubbly-happy song. What I love the most about this remake is that it's fresh and new but still maintains a lot of the essence that the song first had. You don't know how much I re-played this song when it first came out. It was like replay and replay for almost every single day, hour and minute.

Last but not least! : VIXX LR - Beautiful LiaR


So, VIXX finally debuted their first sub-unit and you know you can always count on Jelly Fish to do their best with any of their releases. I was so in love with this sub-unit that I didn't realise that this song is actually my second most played song through out the year. I believe Leo and Ravi did an amazing performance with this sub unit. The message, the style, the way they played the concept is something that you would expect from Jelly Fish and more. Obviously if you asked me to rate this song/album, I would probably give it a 4.5/5. I'm also so in love with the music video. I wish I knew how to express how much I am in love with the song and music video but I can never find the right word, expression.

I’m letting go of your tightly held hands
But my heart is still the same
But I’ll let you go
I’m letting go of your hands
But my heart is still the same
I think it’s best for you
if I end it right here

So, that's it for (hopefully not this year) now! till then,

wai.

Summer, summer rain.

After a few weeks, I finally have the time to settle down and sit in front of this desktop and literally check everything. Less than a month after my travel to Kuala Lumpur, I was then set on another trip. A trip I've been looking forward to since I-don't-know-when. So, when I finally touched down and landed in Seoul, I went "Oh wow, I'm here, finally here".

Well, it actually took a few hours for that thought to sink in as I was mostly worried with luggage, immigration and all that. So, that thought finally sank in when I arrive in Myeongdong. Spending 8 days in Seoul, using the subway, walking around, rarely using taxi or private cars was definitely a rare experience. It was a good-rare experience because that was my main target, experiencing all the Seoul lifestyle. I didn't manage to enjoy the food as much as I can though as I was traveling during fasting month but it was indeed a different experience.

I'm back in Brunei though for now and I can't wait for a new set of adventures. Soon, Amin.

till then

wai

Well, talk about neglecting blogs.

Haha, What a title! We all have to admit though, I neglected this blog for too long. We now have a lot of different platforms, social networking sites we could use. Then we start to forget about the earlier sites we have, whether they be blogs, facebook, friendster or that sorts.

I never forgot about this blog, I sometimes like to read back all the posts I had typed in and usually end up cringing while reading and after reading. Haha. I used to be so expressive with words back then, now, I usually forget what I like to say, sometimes I find it hard to talk it out. I realized this after watching one of Mat Lutfhi's video, where he talked about teaching kids and it's definitely true. With kids, you need to really open up your mind and be prepared to answer very good question which adults would never ask. So, in a way, I feel lucky to be a teacher but at the same time, feel sad that I can't share the type of questions I have with my kids with my fellow friends, colleagues because we are too embarrassed to ask.

I love my kids, I really do, they sometimes make my day brighter even the naughty ones. They are amazing, they have so many comebacks to what you have to say but it makes you think and come up with very good but true and honest answers. So, whenever I have a bad day at work, I usually just remind myself and say, those kids are worth staying for. They are worth it. And, whenever I think about what had happened with the kids, they make me smile and forget all those negative things surrounding work.

Yes, I admit, being an educator has it's challenge and we usually face negative feedback instead. We are always the person who are blamed for what happens to a kid, or what happens in school. We also then have other admin related works which you wish could fly away instead of piling up. I usually just give up with hoping that it would be less because we know it will never be less. I now end up saying what now every now and then.

It also will not help a lot if you have conflicts at work, I'm not saying I have conflicts but when the community has conflicts, it affects everyone. It always end up to be, with the Bruneian phrase "Kau-kau, aku-aku" and "Kau tanya ia lah" which I usually just roll my eye on. I mean, would it kill us to be more professional during work and just let everything go once you vent it all out. Haha.

I think it's best to tackle your problems immediately, that's what I did and I feel so much better. No one likes to talk about it anymore because they know how pissed off I am with the matter. It's never good to talk about someone behind their back. Just no.

till then.

-swmy

K-pop Debuts 2011

My favourite K-pop debuts for the year 2011.

March 3rd, Song Ji Eun featuring Bang Yong Guk (Ji Eun's solo debut) - Going Crazy

Ji Eun's solo debut featuring Bang Yong Guk, who I personally love! First of all, the music video is amazing. So, TS Ent did an amazing job with the video and the concept they were going for. Personally, what I love so much about this song is the lyrics and knowing that Yong Guk wrote the rap himself, he earned a lot of plus points for that. When I then watch their live performances, it is just awesome. I mean, the chemistry, their voices together, their feelings, it was obvious how much they understood and know what the song meant. This song still remains as the Most Played song in my phone, so that will explain how much I love this song.

April 14th, Block B - Freeze

Block B consists of 7 members, namely Jaehyo, B-Bomb, U-Kwon, P.O, Zico, Kyung and Taeil. When I first saw them perform, I admire their passion. It was really sad though because they only perform the full song in Music Bank and that's it. They weren't given enough chance to showcase their selves. I personally think it was unfair considering how much potential they had shown. I mean, Zico and Kyung both produced / help produced their album. Their first single was really impressive, I especially love Wanna B. Sadly, They face tonnes of difficulty ever since their debuts, with the censorship issues, not being to perform as much as they could but still they worked hard and released two mini albums which I personally really like. If I could, I would recommend everyone to listen to Halo (First Mini Album) and 했어 안했어 (Second Mini Album)

October 25th, Most Incredible Busters (M.I.B) - G.D.M

Absolute favourite debut! M.I.B consists of 5zic, Kangnam, SIMS and Cream. Before they debuted with G.D.M, Each members released a solo. 5zic quickly caught my attention when Beautiful Day was released. I mean, just listen to that song and it's just too awesome for words then I continue watching SIMS, Cream and Kangnam and instantly I was hooked! However, I was quite disappointed when they decided to end their promotion with just G.D.M when there were tonnes of good songs in their albums. So, if you really want to check them out, you should listen to their albums instead of just this one song. I was so hooked with them that they are actually in my top 5 of Most Played artist. That is how good and awesome they are. Two of my favourites track from their album is Men Comin and 모두 다 뻔해. However I do suggest you listen to the whole album because if you don't, you are missing something. I mean, Who Am I is an amazing song especially when they performed it live. Who's Next is too awesome for words so is My Way! & With that I declare my most favourite debut of 2011 has to be Most Incredible Busters! Haha.

till then

swmy

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012.

Alhamdulillah, 2011 was a good year for me and my family. Above picture shows things which happened throughout 2011. A lot of things had happened actually but those were the few highlights which had happened back in 2011. The first month, I was appointed to be a class teacher, it was definitely a huge responsibility. I took care of 26 students and was teaching 51 students overall. It was an interesting experience which I think I will never forget. This year, I will be taking care of them too, so hopefully it will be a much more amazing year with them kids. The second month, well, I finally granted myself two wish which I wanted for a very long time. My 42" and my own home theater set which I absolutely adore until now. By March, I finally re-did my room, yes, bought my own office set and re-paint / decorate my room. I also receive my very first order during March!

April, aww, our family's big month. My sister finally had her wedding! So, yes, we were absolutely busy for the whole two weeks but thankfully, everything went as plan. Oh, one of the things I absolutely enjoy was, Doa Selamat ceremony, a day after the Sanding, where my sister called up Dinshe as their special guest. :D The next month was full with visiting various government places as a part of our Staff Development. One of the places we went to was the Weather Station! That place had amazing view, I'm telling you! The next few month involved lots and lots of food! Haha. As you all know, I have a huge love for food so yeah. A week before my birthday, my dad, mum, brother and I went to Miri for our very first road trip after I don't know how many years. Yes, it was our first time to Miri after a very long time so obviously, we weren't familiar with the place at all but thankfully, we had a really good trip.

This year, I celebrated my 21st with my whole family at Buffalo Steakhouse and I have to say, I had an absolutely amazing birthday this year. I was actually invigilating O Levels on my birthday but I had an amazing day from morning till night. <3 The next month was a very busy month and as you know, I went to Kota Kinabalu during December so overall, my year was jam-packed with amazing activities. So, I will be here welcoming 2012 with a huge smile hoping it will be an amazing year too. Amin.

till then

-wai

[D-3 & 4] Kota Kinabalu Road Trip.

source : virtourist

So, here comes Day 3 and 4 of the Kota Kinabalu trip. We woke up quite early on the third day, at around 7.30am-ish. I think we finally recovered from the long road trip. We decided to go to the city for the third day and so off to Wisma Merdeka to get breakfast at KFC. Yes, we initially thought they had the a.m meal but turns out they only offer that at their 24 hour branches so we had a really simple KFC meal. After breakfast, we went to a souvenir shop to get some souvenirs for families and friends. One of the reason why we wanted to go to Wisma Merdeka was because it was right next to Suria Sabah.


Yes, we were planning on spending our day at Suria Sabah. So after shopping for souvenirs off to Suria Sabah! We only travel by foot cause it was really close, it was like next to Wisma Merdeka. From the outside, Suria Sabah looks so small but honestly, you shouldn't say that. It's big, no, it's huge. But most of the shops in Suria Sabah, you can also find them at 1Borneo so I took the chance to get things I wanted at 1Borneo but didn't get. Haha. At first, we entered the Cotton Place cause mum and I really like cotton clothes but we finally found the bag. After that, we went to Times Bookstore.

Can I just say, can we have this type of bookstore in Brunei? I mean, there is no pressure for you to buy at all! And there is a lot of variety of books. It's like book heaven, I'm telling you. One of the things which turn me off at local bookstore is that whenever we go in, they would be looking at you, like pressuring you to buy something and when we ask if we have this so-so book and they don't have that, they start recommending other books. At times I feel like shutting them down but yeah. Anyway, back to Times. Seriously, I love this book store! They have this little space where you can spend time reading a book cause there are times when you are not sure whether you really want the book, so you could spend some time looking through the book. Kids can also play at a space. So, it really is amazing. I also love how they had place and organise their books. Seriously! Bookstore is my thing. Haha. Yes, of course, bought lots of books from this place. Haha.



Next, we went to Brands Outlet, grab a few graphic tees here. There was a sale going on, so obviously a lot of people were there. Haha. We went to couple of other places but I can't quite remember what it was because all I can remember was that, we had lunch at Kenny Rogers again. Haha. I kinda miss Kenny Rogers right now cause you can't find them here. I think I prefer KR than BK. Haha. Anyway, after that, we went back to 1Borneo because Mum and Dad wanted to get foot massage. So yeah, while Mum and Dad had their massage at Zouk Spa, brother and I went around 1Borneo again to get some things before we leave tomorrow. We went to get some Famous Amos and Donuts from the Big Apple. After the massage, we also went to Karamell Almondo where we had ice-creams! Mine had almonds in it so I'm happy. Haha and it's vanilla too! That is definitely a plus!

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Anyway, that night, we had dinner at Fish & Co who is famouse for having 'Seafood on a Pan'. So, we had seafood platter for two that night. Seriously, the portion was not for two. It was for four! Haha, because they had shrimps, calamari, fish, WAIT. Let a picture do the talking. Just replace the chips with rice. That is how it looks like. So yeah, was really full that night because we also ordered carbonara. Should not have cause we couldn't finished that cause we were busy eating the seafood platter. Haha.

So the next day, we woke up early and thankfully we had packed the day before so we weren't really in a rush. We checked out early from our apartment, at around 8.30am and had Breakfast at Alamesra which is situated right opposite 1Borneo. By 9.30am, the place where we had breakfast was surrounded with Bruneians and cars from Brunei was like bersusun. Haha. Anyway, at 10am, went to the city and grab some Burger Kings for the sister and brother in law. And by 10.30am, we took off from Kota Kinabalu.

Now this where, super-looooooong ride start. At 4.30pm, we were still waiting at Temburong for the ferry. Seriously, I think we stayed at a spot before moving front for like 30 minutes because when I woke up from my ONE HOUR nap, we weren't moving that much. Haha, we moved like 10m (approx) and that is it. So, imagine the long hours in the car. It was totally tiring. Kuala Lurah also had a really long line but thankfully we managed to arrive home at 7.30pm. Alhamdulillah.

As I walked in my house, received two different texts from Zimah and Mar asking where I was and if I was okay and that was when I knew about the accident. Obviously, we were very shocked and I couldn't even begin to imagine the incident, it was just scary and it really did made me speechless. All we could say,

Our deepest condolences to the families relating to the bus accident. Semoga roh mereka di cucuri rahmat and Hopefully everyone else is now okay. Amin.

So, that is it. End of trip. I'm glad I finished this post. So, see everyone real soon because I am planning on updating more because I realised I've been neglecting my blog for a while.

till then

-wai

[D-2] Kota Kinabalu Road Trip.

Hello again. Now, it's time for Day 2 of the Kota Kinabalu road trip. We mostly spent our day 2 at 1Borneo because it was such a large shopping mall. I mean, it was a lot of floors, atriums, wings so we pretty much had to spend one whole day at 1Borneo. For your information, going to 1Borneo from the city centre will take you at least 20-30 minutes because, it is away from the city. If you were to go from the city, just look for the University Malaysia Sabah sign and that is where you are going. Yes, 1Borneo is next to the UMS. During the first day, I admit we had difficulty trying to find 1Borneo but after a while, you actually kinda get where 1Borneo is.


Anyway, taking into account that it is only our second day and the day before were really tiring, of course we woke up late. Everyone woke up at around 8.30am which is kinda early-late. Haha. Made some hot Milo and ate some crackers before going down to 1Borneo at 9.45am. Stores at 1Borneo actually opens at 10-10.30am. So we were actually still early because we were hoping to eat breakfast early at Old Town. But before going for breakfast, we managed to take our 'tourist' picture without many distractions cause no one was around. Haha. So, at 10.00am, we went to Old Town to get breakfast. Unfortunately, they couldn't serve us any rice / noodle related food so we end up eating their Western breakfast meal and the toasts! But then come to think of it, Old Town IS famous for it's toast so yeah. Both me and Syahmi had OLDTOWN Enriched Chocolate Freezy which, can I just say, Totally refreshing and awesome.



After breakfast, we then started shopping from 11am till 1.30pm. One of the things I advice you to have / wear for a day shopping is definitely SLIPPERS. Yeah, well maybe you guys are fine with wearing heels or flats but seriously after three hours of shopping, it really gets to your feet. So everyone, pack up your slippers, use them to your advantage. Anyway, I did not forget to bring my slippers, I just left them at my workplace so the first thing I really needed that morning was to find a pair of good slippers! You can actually find slippers everywhere, Adidas, Nike, Hush Puppies, Bata, Crocs you name it, they have it in 1Borneo. But since one of the stores we went to were Factory Outlet Store (F.O.S), I managed to find a good pair of slippers there for both me and mum. I also managed to get some scribble tees, so I think F.O.S was a good place to find slippers! Syahmi also managed to find his favourite hat there so yeah. F.O.S was really a good place to start with.

After going to F.O.S, we decided to go to Optical 88 because I really needed new pair of glasses. They took around 30-45minutes to prescribe my degrees but I'm not complaining cause they really did take good care of me. I mean, usually stores would just ask you to recite the numbers, pick the right lens and that is right. But it turns out, my eyes are not at the same lens because I have this problem with the red-green / silau problem. WHICH explains why I can't see very well with my contacts lens. It also turns out after I wore those contacts, my degrees went up. *nods Not a good thing. Anyway, if you need new glasses, Optical 88 is a good place to go to. They finished mine in one hour, they have good service (They gave my mum, dad and brother, water when they were waiting for me), good and honest opinion, really good choice of glasses too. So I was very satisfied and happy.


After Optical 88, off to shopping again! Went to Doss, to buy new cute slippers for everyone. Managed to get two new slippers which I really adore at the moment. We also went to Adidas and a lot of shoe / sports store. Seriously! We also went to Harris bookstore where I managed to grab a few books, pencil case and school bag for my brother. Then it was 1.30pm. Our stomach was grumbling, I was hungry so we stopped at Kenny Rogers for lunch. Seriously, what happened to Kenny Rogers in Brunei? It's so healthy good-awesome food! Haha.

Anyway, after lunch we went up our apartment to refreshen ourselves and get like 20 minutes to rest before continuing our shopping spree at 1Borneo. The first place we went to after resting was Parkson, seriously, the only reason why we spend two hours there was, there was a lot of things to look at and a LOT of queuing going on. But after Parkson, I manage to fulfill one of my wishlist I had since I was 16! Alhamdulillah.


So that is it for Day 2, yes, we went to lots of other places and ate dinner but I think this much of writing is enough. So, next will be a combination of day three and four, I think and that will be it!

till then

-wai

[D-1] Kota Kinabalu Road Trip.

Hello everyone! Is everyone enjoying your holiday? Well, for those who are having their holiday, how is your holiday treating you? Alhamdulillah, mine have been. Well, mixed with all sorts of things. Holiday for me well, let's just say time is flying super fast. I mean look at the calendar now, it's only a few more days to go before work will start for me! Haha.

Anyway, so I'm here to write how my road trip to Kota Kinabalu with both my parents and little brother went. Alhamdulillah, we arrived safely at Kota Kinabalu on 17th December 2011 around 4pm. You have to know, it's our first looong-faaar road trip together. Remember, the last time I went to KK, I actually only went with my older sister and couple of my cousins. As for my parents, the last time my father and mother went to KK was probably in 1995-1997 with their two daughters using the airplane. So, it's officially our very first long and far road trip together. We were obviously very nervous with yes, a lot of worries. But Alhamdulillah, we went and came back safely.


So, the above picture is taken while we were queuing at Kuala Lurah. It was approximately 6.35am when this picture was taken. We actually spent one hour here before reaching Limbang. Yeah, we went through one hour of queuing at the Immigration office but you know, I don't think there is anything we can do about it. It is that time of year where everyone is going to KK. So yeah guys, the only way to overcome this is patience and if you went to Kota Kinabalu recently or during December 2011, I think everyone know how long it took for everyone to get on that ferry at Limbang to Temburong.

Well, to explain that in numbers, we checked out from the Immigration in Limbang and started queuing at 8.30am and finally got on the ferry at 10.48am. Yes, we took two hours just to get on the Deli Ferry at Puni (if I am right). It cost BND$ 4 or RM8. Pay them using any currency you like. Honestly the two (Kuala Lurah and the Ferry) is the only thing which took a while because the rest went smoothly including all the other immigration counters (e.g Merapok)

Oh yeah, since we had no experience at all, going to Kota Kinabalu by car, this map really came in handy. However there are a lot of things which had changed. For one, there's no more ferry at Trusan and no more immigration office at Lawas. Then there are tonnes of changes with the road, new round-a-bouts are build but, the map still get it's point and it did help us go to Kota Kinabalu safely. Anyway, after the long drive, we finally arrived in Kota Kinabalu City Centre at around 3.55pm. However the traffic was so bad, we finally checked-in our apartment at 4.30pm. But thankfully, the apartment staff and place welcomed us with smiles and we were really happy with the place we were staying at.

During the three nights trip, we stayed at Borneo Holiday Homes which was situated at 1Borneo Shopping Mall at Tower B. There is a lot of plus sides staying at this apartment. One of them is they provide safe parking space. Yes, you need to have an access / parking card to park at the designated park space. You also need the access card to enter Tower B. In other words, safety is a real concern with the owners / staff of Borneo Holiday Homes and Tower B itself. There is actually a lot of company providing services to stay at Tower B and Borneo Holiday Homes is one of them. However, I would recommend you to stay over with them because one, the safety reasons, two, if you need them or any help, you could just go to Room 21-16 and they are there. Yes, their office was right next door.


Another reason why you should stay over Tower B is because once you go down the elevator, you arrive at 1Borneo, well not exactly. You have to go out using the access card, go through the reception then yeah, shop! Haha. Yes, you go out and there is 1Borneo Shopping Mall and I believe you can find everything here from food, shoes, bags, books to obviously everything. My family and I spent almost two days trying to cover the whole mall and seriously, there was a lot of things to look at! Obviously.

However that night, around 7.10, we took a taxi over to the city centre because we wanted to go and look / shop at Pasar Malam. What do people usually say about Pasar Malam? Well, it goes something like this

"If you can find it at the shopping mall, you can definitely find them at a cheaper price at Pasar Malam!"

So, from 1Borneo to Pasar Malam, it will cost you, well it cost us RM30. We didn't want to drive around because it was night and we still didn't really quite figure out the roads from 1Borneo to the city centre. I think we all know it actually cost around RM25 if you were a local but we just were not in the mood to argue so, from 1Borneo and to 1Borneo back, it may cost you RM60. We didn't buy anything much at Pasar Malam because everyone was selling practically the same thing. Just a couple of souvenirs, cheap shoes and that was pretty much it.

We went back to 1Borneo for dinner at The Chicken Rice Shop. Thankfully service was good and fast even though there was a lot of people dining in. I recommend you to order the family set. Lots of thing to eat plus that one jug of revive seriously helped us with our thirst! It was a tiring day and night, so after dinner, we went off to the apartment. Basically, that was our first day! Anyway, will be writing more soon, Insya-Allah. Just pray that I will have the time and words to use for the next three days. Haha.

till then

-wai

오랜만이야

Wow, it's been a while since I last blog and so many things had happened while I was away from this blog. Graduation, working, weddings, challenges, renovation and so much more. Well, Alhamdulillah, I finally graduated from our local university and am finally working officially. Graduation was to me, amazing. From rehearsals to the very day. It felt surreal and when the day ended, it finally made me realise that I was and am a graduate from UBD. :)

I actually think I forgot how to blog and I think I did. I can't really remember how I come up with things I posted up for my blog, it used to come up easily. Well, for all I know, nowadays, I've been spending time on mostly works and just listening to music. Yeah, works been giving me a headache and been taking up most of my time. I think any work or occupation will take up time and I will eventually get use to this lifestyle. Back in Uni, my life was a little more care-free than now so I definitely miss that. I definitely miss my mates too. Don't get me wrong. I do have friends at work but I use to have a group of friends, where nowadays it's more to a one-two person basis.

Oh, and I'm currently the youngest at work. Haha. 20 and an educator, How do I feel? Like a kid. Surrounded by people who are older and with more experience than me can be very overwhelming. Whenever I'm overwhelmed with works which are given to me, I wonder how my older colleague were able to get through everything for more than a year. Without even noticing, I find myself observing every single person in my workplace, looking at how they do their work, how they manage to handle everything and I have to say, it's been really interesting. There are things which I need to follow and things which I think should be left unsaid but everything is interesting.

So, life has been interesting, work too. I'm still in the process of learning. So yeah. :)

till then

- wai

the soundtrack

The five songs you would always want to bring with you and why.

Wow, this was hard to answer. I mean really hard. I have tonnes of favourite music and songs and it was hard to include or exclude some of the songs for this question. Well, here goes.

The first song I pick would have to be, BAY (베이) - Love Again.

This song was the first song that popped in my head when I saw this question. This band is so difficult to follow since there's really limited news about them. The debuted way back in 2007 and still have not released anything new but I personally love their first album, Open The Road. It was amazing, especially this song. Ever since I heard this song, it's been in my playlist since forever. I tend to listen to this song whenever I'm on the road, with my headphones on. It sounds amazing and it always makes me feel well, good and sad at the same time. I really don't know how to describe this but it's been a favourite for a while. And I just love listening to it through my headphones.

Second song, 愛せない愛したい (Aisenai Aishitai) by Tohoshinki.

Yes, I would bring this song with me wherever, whenever. I know, the lyrics are very depressing but to be honest, this was the Tohoshinki I fell in love with. Well, honestly their first album, both Japan and Korean impressed me the most. But yes, the lyrics are depressing but I think the emotions and meaning makes me love this song more and more. It's just so dramatic but lovely at the same time. Plus those music is just guh.

My third choice would be, Sober by Kelly Clarkson.

This song is by far, my favourite by Kelly. It's called sober but it got nothing to do with alcoholism. It's just a metaphor. This song is mainly trying to avoid bad things and you're achieving it. It's just so hypnotic and amazing. When I first heard this song, I actually felt like crying. The arrangement, the guitar, oh god, everything is just amazing. Plus, when Kelly performed this, she sounded amazing. This song is just so different and it's rare. My favourite line would have to be, Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers. That line is so good. You really have to admit, it's a beautiful song, just listen to it's introduction, content and conclusion, it's amazing.

Fourth song, I have to pick Wanted with Lee Jung's Don't go, Don't go, Don't go.

First of all, I have to say, the album was amazing. Each and every song is just worth listening to. Especially this and I Promise You. I don't know where to begin with this song. When I received news that Lee Jung was gonna collaborate with Wanted, I was ecstatic. I was so happy I couldn't contain myself. This song is just well, the lyrics were well written and the arrangement is amazing. Plus, those voices from Wanted and Lee Jung, it became one of my favourite song all time. You have to listen to understand.

The last song is, Do Your Best by Seigaku, the Tenimyu Cast.

I know, they may not be the most amazing singers out there but I don't know why but I have personal love for this song. Maybe it's because I really like each and everyone of them or maybe this song is just a really good musical song. I don't know. It's just really fun and light. It's also really nice to listen to when you are down because it's just I don't know. It's also amazing because Yanagi is in this. Eventhough, he was involved in that accident but it's really amazing cause he doesn't give up and is still performing. To be honest, this cast is just AWESOME! I also love two versions of this, I love the Dream Live 3rd version and this version, the Hyotei Imperial Match (05) To be honest, while watching the third Dream Live, I cried, buckets! But, no matter what people say, I still think this song is amazing!

There goes. Haha. It took well, shorter than I expected but still it was still hard not to include any songs from ONE OK ROCK or TRAX or Super Junior or Ayumi Hamasaki but yeah, I think I would be okay with this songs. :)

till then.

-wai

first rain

I was asked this question a few days ago.

"Which video is your favourite k-music music video?"

I had three videos in mind and I could not make myself choose between the three since it's all that good. Two of the videos are from the same singer, who I extremely adore and the third is from a band I love since I don't even know when. Alright let me explain one by one. :)

First off, First Rain by TRAX.

I don't even know where to begin, this music video is just amazing to watch. There's no subbed version of this but you can pretty much get the gist of it.

There is three different version according to SMent plus one teaser but I suggest you to watch the full version. I have so many reasons as to why I chose this video in the first place but let's just keep the reasons brief. One, Jungwoo. One word explains everything, Jungwoo acts amazing in this video. Keep in mind, Jungwoo is usually very quiet and subtle in real life plus he's really a dork. So, when this video came out with Jungwoo acting all gangster, I was speechless and impressed, this boy really know how to act. He's also a great bassist so that is a plus, it's really a shame that he withdrew from the band but hey, as long as he is happy but if he is not, he better comeback.

Anyways, you should see for yourself, Jungwoo is really amazing in this. Second, Jungmo's cameo. Jungmo said it himself, "The point of this music video is to find me." He only has 15 seconds in this video but hey, he did well and everyone obviously thinks it's cute of him to be excited about his two lines. It's not really that hard to find him in the video and he was superbly cute. Third, Jay. With Lina of CSJH! This pairing is so amazing, I thought Jay wouldn't be able to pull this off since he is really, well, serious? Haha. Anyway, this pairing is just amazing. Lastly, the storyline. I'm not even sure if there was this type of video before them but so I'm not sure. But, I think it was the first for SMent. I think this was the first SMent video which featured a story and it's amazing. Basically, Jungwoo, Jay and Lina are friends but when Jungwoo starts feeling abandoned and jealous of Jay and Lina's relationship, he betrayed them by going over to another gangster but then I personally think there is this inside thing like Jungwoo going over that side for the sake of Jay and Lina. Haha. I really did my observation for this but I don't know, maybe he's just doing it for the money. But honestly, this video is just amazing and of course, the song and album is also amazing.

The second music video is Lee Seung Gi's When A Man Loves A Woman (Album's Music Video) The music video has three parts and it's comprises of songs from Lee Seung Gi Special Remake Album.

Reasons? Well, I really like Seung Gi and his voice. I believe this was his very first music drama. His previous music video before this was still 6 minutes long but I think this was his very first movie like music video. And it's really heartbreaking. Seung Gi is just too amazing for words. He's a well rounded entertainer and he works real hard. I really like this music video because of Seung Gi himself and the story line. There is an english subbed version in youtube but I'm just too tired to find it. But if you watch this video, I'm telling you it's worthed. And this album is just good. He remade songs from his seniors and he remade them well. I don't know why but I'm always bias when it involves him. I personally think he has one of the best voice in the K-Music industry. He trained well with his senior and this music video is just great. One, Seung Gi's acting, Two, Storyline; it's just so heartbreaking.


The third music video is Lee Seung Gi's White Lie. This music video just shows a different kind of Seung Gi.

He is really amazing in this. I think this was the start of really mature Seung Gi. But then, he had always been mature and that was one of the reasons why he is loved and why I love him. This music video touches story about the Japanese Occupation and well, I think if you watch this music video, you would really understand why I love the video. I don't know why but I liked it. I personally think, Seung Gi's song and voice plays a big part in why I always love his music videos. I mean, I have to admit from Because You're My Woman to Words That Are Hard to Say to Let's Break Up, I never did not like his music video. I love all of his videos to bit but this two videos is really at the top of my list.


Honorable mentions:

Epik High's Fan and One. Bay's To Music. Lee Jung's 그대만 보며. DBSK's Picture Of You. Buzz's My Love. IU's Mia. g.o.d's 2Love.

-wai

guess who's back?

Double S, OH-GONG-IL, baby! :D I can say this is definitely one of my favourite comeback of the year. I mean, I don't even know where to begin. Did you know how much I love their Rebirth album? I liked every single song in that album so obviously I have a huge expectation for this comeback. I was excited for 501 day and had to keep my patience button on when they had to push back their dates, but, It IS WORTHED. :)

This was the second stage comeback and I still love it! Do you know why? I can list so many reasons why and one of the reason is it was an amazing performance. I also have to mention that I think through out two of the stage, they had this consistency that I just can not explain about. I don't have enough words to express how much I love this comeback. One of the things that I love about it is, the song, It's like back to the past, No auto-tunes, Awesome lyrics. I mean, you should read the translation, my favourite two lines is definitely;


너를 보면 아파, 숨이 너무 가파, 이젠 내손 잡아
그 사람은 너를 사랑하지않는데 왜?
(It hurts when I look at you, It's hard for me to breath, now hold my hand
He does not love you, so why?)

세상모두 적이된다해도 나는 안돼
(Even if the world becomes my enemy, I don't care.)


Plus, the presentation, all I could say was Wow. I know a lot of people sang this type of song but this one, is just, different. It has this different feeling. I don't know how to explain. It's like a song where you are hurting but you still care about the person and you don't really care how much that other person is hurting you cause you would risk everything for her. Haha. I totally love this song.

And I have to say, I so love this comeback stage better than their Love Like This days, cause I don't have to complain about the hair. :D Did you know the only thing that turned me off during LLT days was their hair, I kinda hated Kyu Jong and Hyung Joon hair those days but this time, everyone looks so good. And you can definitely rely on DSP to bring something different to the table. I like their outfits actually, Haha. Why? I'm not sure why but it's just different. Maybe because I've seen a lot of performance with suits lately and all I could say was "Nice colour, Nice cut." and it was pretty much the same. So yeah.

I have to also mention, I absolutely love the characters they hold for this comeback. Do you see the intensity? The serious-ness? The determination. Oh god. I'm running out of words. But I think they definitely improved. The only problem I had with their Music Bank comeback was the camera and microphones. I definitely did want them to at least tape the mics. And Mr. Camera man, you missed Kyu Jong's major line, you also missed Young Saeng's stare, you know. As for the second comeback stage, Mr Camera man, you missed Hyung Joon's rap but you manage to capture Kyu Jong during his line, so I'll forgive you this one time. :P Did you know how much I love Hyung Joon's rap, he improved so much. I love.


Anyway, back to the album. Oh my god. I didn't know I would love the album this much. I mean, it's not the most different and outstanding out there but the meaning and melody. Oh god. I love this boys. They did not disappoint. I love each and every song. And I have a personal bias for 영원토록. Yes, to me, it's awesome. My favourite part?


"영원토록 날 바라봐요
영원토록 날 안아줘요
영원토록 날 사랑해요
우리 행복하도록
영원토록 그대만 보며 (영원히)
행복하길 기도해"


I love. And Let Me Be The One is such an amazing proposal slash love song. Haha. It's so sweet. Especially the chorus. I actually go to sleep with this song on ever since their comeback so I think that would explains how much I love this song. I just think this album is such love. Thank you, SS501 for doing this. I love you boys, you brought that extreme fangirl in me again. Haha.

I'll leave you with:

till then

- w a i

'Huh, not serious things

ICE 2010, D2.

Ah, finally finished my volunteer-ing part. I am very glad I took part of ICE 2010. It was definitely a worthwhile experience. It was definitely tiring but fun at the same time. I did so many new things and that's what I had aimed to do. We greeted with smiles. I tried hard to be not shy. I usually try my hard to just ignore people but with this job in hand, there is no such thing as being shy.

The first day was the most chaotic day, in a good way though. We had to settle the parking permit and then greeted the participants, telling them where to register themselves. We also had to do some other things but it was real fun and exciting at the same time. There were times when you feel like strangling someone by the hand but it's all good. Haha. Anyway, with ICE finish, I have a lot more time in my hand and I'm really planning on just spending most of my time resting and more resting. Been sleeping real late and waking up really early the past few days so I really need my energy back. Haha.

I finally read Dear John and watched three quarter of the movie, I have to say I like the book more. I don't know why but yeah. I also re-watched New Moon so I'm really super-ly excited for Eclipse. I'm only in it for the wolves. Yes, WOLVES. Sam, Jake, Embry! :D Haha.

till then

- w a i

Aww, when boys cry.

Okay! One, two, three, Stop!

-as said today.

Diana, Lina, Lila, Fifie and I went to The Mall yesterday. I had only one thing in mind, see the boys and girls. Haha, we wanted to offer little support. We actually had to settle some things at the Uni first yesterday but only settled half and had to continue it the next day which is today.

It was the first meet-up with the girls after our teaching practise so practically everyone was with their stories. We told each other everything and try to update each other with news and updates. Haha. It was as you can imagine, chaos. But it was fun because we talked and spend more time together. It was all good.

We went to The Mall just to see the boys and girls. It was the final round so Diana and I was both nervous and excited. I never knew and realised how even a short period of time will affect you in so many ways. I feel attached and very much connected to the place. When the announcer announced it was them who won, I went teary eye and proud. Aww, I said. Their effort along with the rest of the teachers definitely paid off. Plus when I saw the always cheerful boys cried I went "AWW. You boys so deserve this." And then the girls crying and sobbing made me "AWW, you girls really work hard and this is your reward." I truly believe they deserve it even though I sound bias, but yeah, that's how much I believe in them.

Anyway, finally finished everything in uni and we decided to have lunch over at home. We bought some food at Sumbangsih and ate at home, We were as usual super loud, happy, giddy and share stories together. We should do this often girls. We didn't do this the past few months so yeah. Next time, let's cook our meal instead of buying, alright? :D Soon, should do it when we are all freeeee. :D

till then

- w a i

New A-B-O!

credits: simplyerin.tumblr

Oh hi! First, I just have to shout "HOLIDAY! I LOVE YOU." Haha. Yes, Holiday is finally here after 3 months of really, being busy and stuff. I think most of my colleagues are happy at the moment, since we are finally free temporarily from stress, burden and responsibilities. Not to forget work! But, I have to admit, for the past few months, I was introduce to so many new things and so many new stories. I learn a lot from other and I learn a lot from myself. I saw a lot of new things about myself and other people's life.

I was always ignorant in the past, thinking only about myself and was pretty selfish but when you find yourself having to deal with 59 people every day, you are bound to learn new things, problems and life stories. So yeah, I learn a lot and I am satisfied. I was trying to be at my best and it definitely was a challenge with my temper and all. I know how my temper really effect people around me and I'm trying to change and be better and I'm working on it.

Self-reflection is a good thing but it's only super good when you take actions and learn from all the reflection. That's what I'm trying to do, trying to figure out and I'm sure I'll get there, I'll be okay and I'll be better, Insya-Allah. I won't change who I am but I'll be better. That's what I want for 2010. Hehe, alright, enough with this.

So, I've been watching Cinderella's Sister. I have to say, Taecyeon is doing real good in here, making me squish here and there and Moon Geun Young is of course always delightful to watch. I love the complexity she shows in her eyes. I just can't wait to watch the next few episodes! And Bad guy is gonna be on soon. Like, YAY! Kim Nam Gil! :D I actually have a long list of dramas that I need to watch so I'm trying to figure out which to watch first. Haha, I've told you, I lead a complicated way of life. Haha, alright I'll end this post since I don't have other things to say.

till then

-w a i

my very own fav.

I've been busy with games, plans and all sorts of things and I've been trying to push myself to blog out things but I just never had the time or motivation to blog. I wanted to blog but I just never really have any things to say. Right now, as you can read from my twitter post, I've been spending most of my time watching several videos and playing StarCraft. I've wanted to play since I don't know when. I think when I heard Kyu was crazy about it years ago.

I finally played the game when I watch the Progamer episode with Hyung Joon and that documentary on National Geo and when I knew my brother actually have the game already. I was taking mental notes a few weeks ago, telling myself to buy StarCraft but we actually have it and there's goes my time dedicating to StarCraft. My race is Zerg since I saw Hyung Joon playing it and I personally like Zerg. Haha. Personally, I like Zerg, I think their builds are easier to understand but hard to perfect.

And as you may predict I have my own favourite progamers and team. Looks up. Haha, I think they are just adorable. With the way they are sincerely helping Hyung Joon, giving him tips and sacrificing some of their practise time. They are awesome. I also like Bi-Su even though he doesn't talk much and there were several history between him and my current favourite team. I haven't seen Lee Jae Dong play so I can't say much. But I have to say Gyung Jong is my absolute favourite and he's a Zerg too so that's awesome. And he's awesome!

Alright enough of StarCraft. A few weeks ago I found out something new about myself. I actually have this thing call selective muting in myself. But not in a super serious way but I do find myself muting to several people. I can't bring myself to talk or communicate. But I think my problem is mainly not knowing how to socialise, how to be the first to open things up. I prefer if other people start talking to me first. I don't like being the first to strike up a conversation. I think I have to improve that and just try and deal with the problem.

I also recently found out how ignorant I am. I just realised how ignorant I am about people around me and things around me. Sometimes, I like it that way because I don't need to care about what's going on in other people's live but at some period of time it can be a negative thing when you act very ignorant and selfish. Being ignorant can also seem like you are being rude and just plain annoying. So, I try to be as open as possible and listen to other's opinion and says.

Whosh. Too many typing. Headache! :D

till then

- w a i