'Huh, not serious things

ICE 2010, D2.

Ah, finally finished my volunteer-ing part. I am very glad I took part of ICE 2010. It was definitely a worthwhile experience. It was definitely tiring but fun at the same time. I did so many new things and that's what I had aimed to do. We greeted with smiles. I tried hard to be not shy. I usually try my hard to just ignore people but with this job in hand, there is no such thing as being shy.

The first day was the most chaotic day, in a good way though. We had to settle the parking permit and then greeted the participants, telling them where to register themselves. We also had to do some other things but it was real fun and exciting at the same time. There were times when you feel like strangling someone by the hand but it's all good. Haha. Anyway, with ICE finish, I have a lot more time in my hand and I'm really planning on just spending most of my time resting and more resting. Been sleeping real late and waking up really early the past few days so I really need my energy back. Haha.

I finally read Dear John and watched three quarter of the movie, I have to say I like the book more. I don't know why but yeah. I also re-watched New Moon so I'm really super-ly excited for Eclipse. I'm only in it for the wolves. Yes, WOLVES. Sam, Jake, Embry! :D Haha.

till then

- w a i

Aww, when boys cry.

Okay! One, two, three, Stop!

-as said today.

Diana, Lina, Lila, Fifie and I went to The Mall yesterday. I had only one thing in mind, see the boys and girls. Haha, we wanted to offer little support. We actually had to settle some things at the Uni first yesterday but only settled half and had to continue it the next day which is today.

It was the first meet-up with the girls after our teaching practise so practically everyone was with their stories. We told each other everything and try to update each other with news and updates. Haha. It was as you can imagine, chaos. But it was fun because we talked and spend more time together. It was all good.

We went to The Mall just to see the boys and girls. It was the final round so Diana and I was both nervous and excited. I never knew and realised how even a short period of time will affect you in so many ways. I feel attached and very much connected to the place. When the announcer announced it was them who won, I went teary eye and proud. Aww, I said. Their effort along with the rest of the teachers definitely paid off. Plus when I saw the always cheerful boys cried I went "AWW. You boys so deserve this." And then the girls crying and sobbing made me "AWW, you girls really work hard and this is your reward." I truly believe they deserve it even though I sound bias, but yeah, that's how much I believe in them.

Anyway, finally finished everything in uni and we decided to have lunch over at home. We bought some food at Sumbangsih and ate at home, We were as usual super loud, happy, giddy and share stories together. We should do this often girls. We didn't do this the past few months so yeah. Next time, let's cook our meal instead of buying, alright? :D Soon, should do it when we are all freeeee. :D

till then

- w a i

New A-B-O!

credits: simplyerin.tumblr

Oh hi! First, I just have to shout "HOLIDAY! I LOVE YOU." Haha. Yes, Holiday is finally here after 3 months of really, being busy and stuff. I think most of my colleagues are happy at the moment, since we are finally free temporarily from stress, burden and responsibilities. Not to forget work! But, I have to admit, for the past few months, I was introduce to so many new things and so many new stories. I learn a lot from other and I learn a lot from myself. I saw a lot of new things about myself and other people's life.

I was always ignorant in the past, thinking only about myself and was pretty selfish but when you find yourself having to deal with 59 people every day, you are bound to learn new things, problems and life stories. So yeah, I learn a lot and I am satisfied. I was trying to be at my best and it definitely was a challenge with my temper and all. I know how my temper really effect people around me and I'm trying to change and be better and I'm working on it.

Self-reflection is a good thing but it's only super good when you take actions and learn from all the reflection. That's what I'm trying to do, trying to figure out and I'm sure I'll get there, I'll be okay and I'll be better, Insya-Allah. I won't change who I am but I'll be better. That's what I want for 2010. Hehe, alright, enough with this.

So, I've been watching Cinderella's Sister. I have to say, Taecyeon is doing real good in here, making me squish here and there and Moon Geun Young is of course always delightful to watch. I love the complexity she shows in her eyes. I just can't wait to watch the next few episodes! And Bad guy is gonna be on soon. Like, YAY! Kim Nam Gil! :D I actually have a long list of dramas that I need to watch so I'm trying to figure out which to watch first. Haha, I've told you, I lead a complicated way of life. Haha, alright I'll end this post since I don't have other things to say.

till then

-w a i

my very own fav.

I've been busy with games, plans and all sorts of things and I've been trying to push myself to blog out things but I just never had the time or motivation to blog. I wanted to blog but I just never really have any things to say. Right now, as you can read from my twitter post, I've been spending most of my time watching several videos and playing StarCraft. I've wanted to play since I don't know when. I think when I heard Kyu was crazy about it years ago.

I finally played the game when I watch the Progamer episode with Hyung Joon and that documentary on National Geo and when I knew my brother actually have the game already. I was taking mental notes a few weeks ago, telling myself to buy StarCraft but we actually have it and there's goes my time dedicating to StarCraft. My race is Zerg since I saw Hyung Joon playing it and I personally like Zerg. Haha. Personally, I like Zerg, I think their builds are easier to understand but hard to perfect.

And as you may predict I have my own favourite progamers and team. Looks up. Haha, I think they are just adorable. With the way they are sincerely helping Hyung Joon, giving him tips and sacrificing some of their practise time. They are awesome. I also like Bi-Su even though he doesn't talk much and there were several history between him and my current favourite team. I haven't seen Lee Jae Dong play so I can't say much. But I have to say Gyung Jong is my absolute favourite and he's a Zerg too so that's awesome. And he's awesome!

Alright enough of StarCraft. A few weeks ago I found out something new about myself. I actually have this thing call selective muting in myself. But not in a super serious way but I do find myself muting to several people. I can't bring myself to talk or communicate. But I think my problem is mainly not knowing how to socialise, how to be the first to open things up. I prefer if other people start talking to me first. I don't like being the first to strike up a conversation. I think I have to improve that and just try and deal with the problem.

I also recently found out how ignorant I am. I just realised how ignorant I am about people around me and things around me. Sometimes, I like it that way because I don't need to care about what's going on in other people's live but at some period of time it can be a negative thing when you act very ignorant and selfish. Being ignorant can also seem like you are being rude and just plain annoying. So, I try to be as open as possible and listen to other's opinion and says.

Whosh. Too many typing. Headache! :D

till then

- w a i

you are just another boy.

Blog, blog, blog. I told myself to update but I never got around to do it. Mainly because, I'm busy, too many works to do, my time is limited to other things such as rest. Haha. I don't know what to blog out because, apparently nothing much went on in my life for the past few weeks. Well, there's National Day celebration a few weeks ago and Maulud Nabi celebration last Thursday.

There's a lot of celebration going on but I'm actually pretty excited to be part of it. It's like, I finally experience the preparations hands on and all, it was certainly an experience. Also, I've been trying to stay positive for the past few weeks and I'm really hoping I'll stay optimistic. I know I can. Oh yeah, I finally finish one of the things I've started doing in 2010 and I am super glad I finished. *random.

Eish, too many random post up there. I should just strike through each and every word I've just type but I'm gonna leave them there. Oh! Did you know there's like gizzilions dramas about to air and it's like fighting for our attention, like LITERALLY. I am anticipating Bad Guy with Kim Nam Gil (Bi Dam!), Personal Taste with Son Ye Jin and Oh My Lady with Siwon. (Woooot!) Not to forget, there's also Paradise Rance which I'm gonna be nervous foooor. I don't know how B #2's gonna do but I hope he does well, as I've always said, I have faith in him. :D

I'm gonna end this post now, I'll try updating soon with a much more meaningful content next time.

till then

wai.

because i chose you.

I am so not ready but I need to be.

When was the last time I updated? Wednesday, and now it's already Sunday. For the past few days, all I did during my spare time was rest, rest, TV, videos and more TV. I'll be busy starting tomorrow, so expect a less updated blog. I'll try to update but if time is limited, that seems like a difficult thing to do. But then, there's always twitter. :)

Anyway, my month has been quite challenging because my mood is constantly changing, it's like very unstable. I guess it's because I'm nervous and my feelings are all like madness. Haha. I just hope I will be able to get through everything positively. I hate it when I'm a total hot-head and hot-tempering person. It's just never nice. I told myself to keep that resolution. That was the one thing I found hard to do. I can be very hot-tempered, I'm not even kidding. I find it scary myself.

Haha. Now, now, enough with that. I just hope 2010 will be a better, productive year. I want it to be a better year than before. Do you know what I hate the most? Not knowing what to expect. I don't like it when things are not going the way I plan it to be and that's just wrong. I hate that in me but not knowing what will happen makes me nervous. I personally think, I'm really hard to understand cause one day, I'm up and the next day I'm down. It's never consistent and sometimes very contradicting. So, let's just hope I don't get confuse more in 2010. Whaaaat?

Alright, I have to go. Badminton is on. :)

till then

- w a i

fearing the future, it's not an option.

Even in my age now, I'm the same as before

As timid as before

I only learn how to pretend to be strong.

~ No way to say - Ayumi Hamasaki.

(Translation by masa)

I'm currently listening to Ayumi Hamasaki's ~A Complete~. I'm feeling a bit nostalgic about it. I remember how much her song helped me through my teenage years. I think most of Ayu's song is almost like a soundtrack to me. It's like that one song which I hold onto and will never let go. I can listen to it over and over again and never get bored of it. Ah, I'm feeling a bit sentimental about this. I love her song to bits. I still love her and her songs. What I love so much about her song is that, it's real. You feel the same way, it's not fake. It's also very introspective and artistic.

My favourite is No way to say but then I actually love every single song she had produced and released. I may sound bias here, but I love her songs. It's deep, it hits the heart. I can actually cry when I listen to her albums. And whenever she performs, I just can't help but admire her. She always does her best and it's just lovely. I think I tend to talk about Ayu frequently. I just think, personally, she's one of the best entertainer/singer/songwriter who I have seen. She's true, never fake and always does her best in everything.

I think I've said this once in my blog, but If I were given a chance to attend anyone's concert, I would pick Ayumi's. The first time I saw her concert, I was blown away. It was almost like it's the best concert I've seen ever. It's entertaining filled with heart-felt performances which is always warm to the heart. The performances are always packed with surprises so you can't really help but enjoy the whole concert altogether. I wish I went to one of her tours. I mean like, seriously. Haha. There's a couple other concerts I would like to go to, but I'll post that out some other time.

till then

- w a i